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konbanwa mina-san!

seperti yang diperkatakan. starting from now tuan puteri will be blogging through new blog >>

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kelahiran adik perempuan ini adelah untuk menunjukkan kepada anda semua sisi dan diri dan kehidupan baru seorang puteri bernama Risa.

okeh tu jew. bye. jumpa di blog hadek yek.

i miss JB already

Mood : (-____-)
Music : Alice Nine - Gemini-0-Eternal

i just return from JB like four days ago and i started missing it. four days for holidays is not enough!! i missed my nekos already. i know i never put any picture of my nekos cuz of this baka jinx. they said cameras took nekos' souls. well, i kinda.... believe that cuz whenever i took picture of my nekos, they seems to be DIED not long after. of GONE MISSING. it's true! i thought that thing just myth but that shit really happens! that's why i didn't post any of my neko pics. cuz i don't wanna lose them! ><

by the way, i missed thing particular thing a lot. finally i manage to eat them on my take off day. KACANG POOL. really oishi!! made of beans of i-don't-know XD *cuz i asked my mom and she also didn't know what kind of beans are used* and we eat with toasted bread. i can only found it in JB. at LARKIN.

and as usual. what would you not do with our very own selca queen?? XD this is me on my way to the bus terminal XD

back to business ;)

Mood : a slight headache
Music : the GazettE - Naraku

konbanwa minna~ hey hey!! seems like the connection is back in business!!

nyahaha!!! there's  lot i wanna say here. first of all, i will be on my hunting for new job. i think i had enough at my current job. it's not like i can't take the pressure but going totally not in your field, it's really something you can't stay for last. law wasn't my field at all. tho the work seems to be not such a big deal but since i feel like i'm running everything in that damn office, i need to find back my path. so i have my dad advices and need more from him cuz i feel like going back to JB. i love KL. it's like my home and been living here since end of 2009 but i can't forever stay here at my aunt place. she got her two kids to raise and in this crowded home, i need my own space. oh yeah. i read joel's tweet about creating your own legacy and keep your creativity alive. it really moved me. oh! yes! i just followed him. joel. a.k.a joel madden. the guy from good charlotte. he's my super duper biggest celeb crush ever. i don't know from where i found him on twitter but yeah i did. when he decided to be with nicole, i was depressed. when he was with hilary, i also depressed. hohohohhh what kind of person am i?! so back to legacy and creativity thingy, i really wanted to get my ass back on fashion, sketching, designing garments again. man i missed that a lot!! i even had this while dream of becoming stylist/designer at ps company. what the hell?! hahas. that's me. that's what i do. i daydream a lot. you don't wanna stay in my brain! it's messy as hell! xDD but really, i would love to design for them! menswear is way easier and of course, your models are men, what else do you expect??!! xDD

jaa... i was actually watching vampire knight but got distracted by posting this entry. lmao
trululu~~

satu bulan satu barang

Mood : agak stress pasal duit le. DUH~

Music : the GazettE - Calm Envy keep calm and listen to the GazettE ♥

konnichiwa minna...

ari ni i dengan jayanya meng-transfer amount yang sepatutnye ke account i yang satu lagi. orang banyak bank le katekan

and yesterday i dah open PayPal account. tadi try top up tapi tak leh pulak. celake tul. tak pe. sat lagi wat balik.

lagi satu. i dah wat kekira. pakai otak jek beb

setelah tolak bill, tolak ptptn, tolak tu, tolak nih

i HANYE leh beli SATU barang SATU bulan.

agak ke-celaka-an kat sini tapi i think that's the best lah.

lagi pon i sedor... i nih kaki boros. shopaholic.

and azam i tahun nih tak nak shopping. no new bags, no new shoes, no new clothes. ye ye owh jek dak nih

lau dah rabak bag tuh, kasut tuh, pakai jek.

lagi pon lau i beli baju lagik, tak tau nak sumbat kat mane. almari dah penuh. fully loaded. sampai terkeluar-keluar baju-baju tuh dari almari.

dengan itu, i boleh save money untuk pembukaan boutique i nanti jeng jeng jeng i'll make sure it WILL come TRUE!

and i leh beli barang online hek eleh.. tu same lah ngan shoppping... DUH!

alah! suke lah! :P

next month i nak beli barang the GazettE! hopefully offical merch diorang if my PayPal account berjaya di-topup!

doakan kejayaan i yek uols sume!!! muah!!! i love you lah! ♥♥♥

papa! wish me luck ne!!

nyaaa~!!! i love you papa~~~~!!!!!! >///////////////<
tell all gazetto boys to send me their support too ne!!! X3


owhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!!! aoi sama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >////////////////////////<
i think that one... leave it to ruki for me~! *w*

wwwwww~~

dah. i nak bekerja dengan kuat tahun nih!

ja mata ne! 

the end of princess risa's hobby... menyinggah lepas keje

Mood: tengah keje... agak stress tapi dah nak balik dah

Music: the GazettE - Filth In The Beauty cam takde lagu lain.. :3

Baru i perasan...

untuk melaksanakan misi terhebat i nih...

ade satu lagi yang i kene give up!

LIKE TOTALLY GIVING UP!

» menyinggah ke TS or Sg Wang or JJ before heading home. 

orz

Huwaaaa~!!!

Bencinye!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >o<

papa~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TT^TT

my one big important new year resolution!

Mood: enthusiast-ed :3

Music: the GazettE - Chizuru

Language: english

naa... ohayou minna-san!

i think the last time i said i don't need a new year resolution...

ano... i'll take that back! :3

since yesterday, i didn't rest easy... fakku.

dakara... i was thinking about new year resolution...

IMMA QUIT MY JOB AND OPEN UP MY OW BUSINESS!

BE MY OWN BOSS!!! YEAH!!!

ne.. my dream is to open my own boutique :3

so... starting for now i MUST be discipline towards myself.

and I SHALL NOT BREAK MY RULES! AND ALSO MY NUMBER ONE BIGGEST RULES OF ALL » NO SHOPPING!!!

my estimation of getting this done is by the middle of next year!

so minna-san!!! please support me ne~!!!

and i gotta forget my urges to shop!! urghh!!! that's the worst part since i always fail at that!

papa!!! I SHALL NOT FAIL!!! >_<

please wish me luck!!!

and to accomplished this, i just have to give on one thing... 

ok. i mean two things.

INTERNET and SHOPPING.

so... i shall not be around much online now...

so i can achieve my goal! rigghhhhttt????? :3

erm... that's mean no more outing for me! i need to save up every penny i could~ 

yosh!!! i can do this!

maa... papa, what do you think?

nyaaaa~!!!! i know you would!!!! mama aishiteru papa-san!!! ♥♥

jaa.... it's work time!!

i still had that fakku feelings that it's not to be a good year-end days but i must be strong and face this!!!

demo, i believe in the good outcome from even the baddest situation!!!

and i believe this is my wake-up call!

yoshhh!!! ja matta ne!!!

oh!!! i shall start learn japanese properly too while i'm at this! 

so busy busy busy days for me!

ano... anyone who fail to find me online can contact my phone! 

jaaaaa~!!!!

under construction » finnito!

woohooo!!!
finally~ i telah berjaya mengubah, renovate, revamp blog i jadi lagik sugoi!!!!
shantek tak? SHANTEK TAK????
w w w ~~~

background belakang is my koibito, ruki sama ♥
i rase ni yang terbaek!
i dah pon meng-delete everything pasal mamat tuh (all the gadgets related to him)
so dah tak de dah!
blog i nih dah cam ala-ala emo-futuristic pulaks lak...

oh ye, i ubah title blog to "psychedelic...heroine"
kelaasssss you!!!
even my blog url pon dah tukar... hehehe~
it's time to be fresh and get myself a brand new... SELF! lol XP

oh, today i akan pergi ke umah cik amy lagik.
sian dia tinggal sensorang kat umah...
hohohohhhh~~~
tunggu ye cik amy, sat lagi i sampai!

okie! this is the screen shot of my new revived blog look ^_^

amacam?? okay tak? mestilah OKAY.. KAN???

aaaggghhhh~~~ fening... fening.... @,@

weekend ni nak kuar ngan my bestie cik amy...
cik amy ajak datang tido kat umah...
i nak! NAK SANGAT!!!
tapi i nak hair dye sabtu nih...
now i under process wat 48 hours skin allergy test...
Ya Allah seksanye nak mandi tadi...
tak leh nak kene air kat tempat yang di test tu...
i start allergy test malam tadi...
so far tak de rashes, redness, irritation ke hape...
so i hengat saturday morning leh dye...
tapi i hengat jumaat petang pas keje terus nak pi umah cik amy...
CIK AMY... APE PENDAPAT ANDA???

under construction part 1

rasenye blog i yang lurvley ni harus di renovate semula.

i kene revamp balik supaya lebih coordinate dan menepati cita rase i yang memang kelassss.
uols kelassss kew?
w w w ~~~
i akan buang element-element yang i rase DAH TAK SESUAI DUDUK DALAM BLOG NIH.

tu termasuklah segala yang bersangkut paut pasai mamat tuh and anything pasai band dia...
i bukan benci (maybe la kot... kat dia ) tapi i rase yang i tak nak mengikuti dah...
dah lah...
kang i panjang lebaq cerita pasai dia lagi.
CUKUP!

WHEN I SAY IT'S OVER BETWEEN HIM AND I

ohoy!!! konnichiwa minna!!!!
ni pehal laks si princess ni tetibe cakap jepun laks??

hohohohhhhh... ape salahnye kan???
lame dah tak datang sini...
hmm... banyak yang dah terjadik...
since last entry.
so many things happens, occurred... to me especially.

semenjak dua menjak ni i asek emo jek...
tak tau nape..
sume tak kene.
tu tak kene. ni tak kene.
pastu rase cam nak lempang orang jek...
isshhhhh!!! hati ni panas jek...
ntah lah...
i'm feeling more lonely.
like i'm slowly fading away.
or rather people around me fading away...

oh ye.
last time. erm... bile i pon tak hengat tapi bulan ni gak.
FINALLY I'VE SAID IT.
I CONFESSED TO HIM.
I TOLD HIM EVERYTHING ABOUT WHAT I FEEL (ISSIT? OR THERE'S MORE?)
WHO?
well, kalau uols alert pasal i, uols akan tau secara otomatiknye sape.
yes. you're right. HIM.
uols leh rujuk entry-entry i yang lepas-lepas untuk keterangan lanjut.
*susah sangat rujuk tags untuk entry nih. senang kan?*
ape yang i cakap kat dia?
ermm... macam-macam gak...
erm... i rase i tak leh nak gi tau sebab THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND HIM.
tapi rasenye cam i mintak putus ngan dia.
*perghhh.... bukannye couple betul pon!*
nape i buat camtu?
sebab... sebab...
i pon tak tau nape...
but the most important thing is
I KENE BAGITAU DIA APE YANG I RASE SELAMA NI.
i cam dah rase terbeban sangat selagi i tak cakap dengan dia.
KALAU BOLEH I NAK CAKAP DIRECT JEK TAPI CAM LAH BOLEH KAN?
or.. should i send him a letter?
so dia boleh paham dengan lebih lanjut?
lagi pon , i gi tau dalam twitter.
ntah dia bace ntah tidak.
KALAU DIA BACE, I FEEL RELIEVED. SEBAB MEMANG I NAK DIA BACE.
KALAU DIA IGNORE....
MEMANG @!#$%^&*&^%$#@! SEBAB HE SHOULD AND MUST READ IT.
TAPI.. TAK PE LAH...
if he didn't read it...
lagi pon i dah tak kisah dah pasal dia.
lantak pi la dia nak wat pa.
i don't want to get involved, associated or even in touch with him.
*pffttttt princess ni marah ka pa?*
no... not marah... well, maybe... but...
how to put this?
i sendiri tak tau camna nak eksplen.
abih ayat dah nak kata.
YES I STILL FOLLOW HIM ON TWITTER.
AND TIPU LAH LAU I CAKAP I TAK STALK TWITTER DIA.
AND I STILL HAVEN'T REMOVED HIM FROM MY PRIVATE TWITTER LIST.
IN FACT, DIA SORANG JA YANG I WAT LIST KAT TWITTER.
uols see, how f***king special mamat sorang nih?
and nape i dok cerita panjang lebaq pasai dia kat sini?

because... he still unable to be deleted completely from my life.
i nak jek tulih kat sini yang dia nih *beep*...
yang dia nih *beep*...
yang i *beep* dia...
yang... banyak lagi lah...
ha... tang *beep tu bukan mencarut tau...
just the words are quite harsh to be written here.
but yes, i write that to him.
and kat dunia ni hanya sorang ja i bagi tau apa yang i cakap kat mamat tu dalam twitter.
she's totally understandable... and in fact, she's the first person i ever talked to in twitter.
i banyak cakap ngan dia especially about that guy. our private convo in twitter... only us girls know.
if uols terase nape i tak share ngan uols, gomenne...
i nih jenis yang private and i'm a chooser.
i sendiri cakap ye yang i ni pemilih. i pilih sape yang worth knowing my secrets.
not everyone can know. eventhough that person is super close with me.
and not all worth my trust.
i can trust people. but i never trust any of them 100%.
even my own parents.
TAPI I TRUST ALLAH 100%.
and i think ape yang i buat nih walaupun i dummo if it's 100% correct but i feel more options are coming.
sejak i decided to forget him (well maybe not completely) i feel more... consistent?
i dapat focus kat work i. i rase cam tak terbeban dah kepala hotak nih..
i feel more organized.
tu pasai lah i lama tak mai sini. sebab i telah membusy kan diri i ngan work sampai la ni i dah tak tau nak wat pa sebab most work i dah settle \(^0^)/
if not... dalam pala otak nih tak dak benda lain nak pikir. asek mamat tu dok bersarang.
langsung tak leh nak konsentret!
pastu malam tadi...
i decided tuk buang sume gambaq-gambaq and video pasai dia dalam phone i.
sebab lau ada, i mesti rase sebak, nak nangis pastu mula la ilang arah, ilang fokus, ilang punca...
cam-cam lagi yang ilang...
i dah tak dengaq lagu dia dah. sora dia. muka dia adelah gak kenkadang i tengok. sebab dia ade tweet gambaq dia.
ha ye.
dia nak mai bulan depan.
tapi i tak pi.
wat pa? bazir duit and masa.
*sorry uols if my words are bit harsh. i'm pointing my opinions*
duit yang beratus tu baik i belanja shopping. like two days ago.
i berjaya *hohhohohhhh* beli sebuah beg kaler pink.
bagusnye ade kaler itam atau merah tapi tak dak pulak. orz
lagi pon i tak kisah la dia nak mai, tak mai.. lantak pi lah.
i know my dongsaeng nak sangat pi. and i penah janji ngan dia nak pi sama but JinAh dear, i'm so sorry.
i can't. i just can't.  *bows*
dah lah..
lagi i cerita pasai dia, lagi tak keruan i.
kang i jadik gila, masuk permai memang i nak saman dia.
*mentang-mentang lah hospital permai tu dekat ngan umah i!*

erm.. tu jek lah kot.
OK. BYES. XOXO
ah ye.
pas ni call i Risa yek. jangan lupe.
*cam japanese sket! hohohohhhh (^0^)/ *
Ija pon leh gak. memang tu nick name i.
but i just wanted to start fresh.
even twitter i pon i dah ubah username i.
takde dah nak menyangkutkan name dia ngan i dah.
cukup-cukup lah tu.
aishhh...
ok lah.
BYE-BYE ♥♥;